Starting Somewhere

Resignedly, I tell myself, “In another life, I’d be this.” I’d be a social butterfly, an actress, a drummer, a computer science geek, a high school entrepreneur, a politician, a three-season athlete, a world-changing philanthropist, a popular lifestyle blogger.

When I was little, on car rides home, I would sit with my head leaned against the window and dream about all the things I would be when I was older. I pictured myself dancing and singing on a huge stage before a crowd of people cheering my name, or proudly attending the event announcing the publication of my new book. The world belonged to me in that backseat, warm and comfortable. It felt infinite, like nothing was impossible.

Today that world feels narrow and foreign, those dreams faded. Despite still being in the peak of our youth, most of us feel like there is one path laid out in front us. And that’s scary. How can we be sure that we want that? A few weeks ago, I dared to think, “Well, why NOT this?” Why should I wait for another life that might not even exist? I can’t tell you an exact moment that inspired me to suddenly start a blog, because the truth is, there is no right moment or time or sign that’s going to jump out at you and tell you to go for it. The time is now; make the moment.

Odds are, I’m not going to become famous through this blog. I probably won’t start lifestyle blogging for a living. And that’s okay. Blogging is really the culmination of everything I love, which is a lot of things: writing, politics, fashion, photography, travel, music, art, life. Essentially, it’s an open-ended institution that I get to make my own. I’m happy to finally be doing something that is just me, with no expectations or confines.

We are told too often, by both others and ourselves, that we are limited. Perhaps to some extent, we are limited. But here’s what I’m thinking: maybe it’s possible to take a step away and still have full sight of that path. We will never know if we never try, as cheesy as that sounds. They don’t have to be huge, insane goals. We don’t have to expect to go from zero to hundred. Set small goals, like starting a free, little blog. Make that YouTube channel or pick up that instrument for the first time. Start somewhere.

I hope you’ll follow me on this little journey of mine (check out that subscribe button down below!) & I hope you’ll seek your own little journey.